IDA move somewhere else.

 - I had to work at 10:30 on thuesday.

- But the village TV woke me up at 7 Am.

- I was not happy about this!

-In order to drawned out the sound I had to turn my TV on. I turned the volume up half way. It hurt my ears but it didn't kill me.

- I fell back to sleep while listening to CMT videos.

- I then worked 9 hours.

- I cane home watch a little TV and by 10pm I was falling asleep on the couch.

- I went into my room to check and see if it was safe to go to bed. IT WAS! My walls were for the moment not talkng to me.

- I got already and into bed and 5 minutes later the talking started.

- I figured I could sleep with the TV on again, so I tried.

- The louder my TV went the louder their TV went.

- I made a choice.

- A. I could lay there and be pissed. All the while having to get up at 6AM. OR B. I could go knock on their door and ask them to turn it down.

- I grew some man balls and choice B.

- I knocked and the yipping started and went on and on and on.

- The guy answered and was puzzled. I explained that their TV was really loud and the walls were thin. I also told him that they either keep me up at night or wake me up in the morning.

- He said he would turn it down.

- I got back into bed. I could still hear their TV but it wasn't as loud.

- I was satisfied (for now). I grabbed some ear plugs and put them in. It was peace like a river.

- Peace like a river doesn't always last long. As I learned 4 hours later.

- At 2:20 AM I was woken up by what sounded like all the walls in my apartment falling down. I still had my ear plugs in so I knew something was going on. I took them out and listened.

- The people above me were having a rollerskating party in their apartment.

-Swell!

- I guess at rollerskating partys it's cool to scream and shout at everything. They get an A+ for effort and delivery.

- I can't win this battle it seems.

- Scary storm we had. I give it an F for effort and delivery. And an F for the schools closing due to sprinkles. For a day I got to feel what it's like to live in arizona when it sprinkles = weak & lame.

This N That

-       I don’t get much sleep anymore. This is not by choice.

-       My neighbors suck because their T.V. is always loud. By this I mean at 2:30 am I’m still up because I can hear their T.V. through my bedroom wall. At 6:15 AM I hear the T.V. again. Really? Who can live off of that little of sleep?

-       Ear plugs don’t work anymore. (The T.V. is too loud)

-       It was in the high 80s today. It was great!

-       Since coming back from vacation I’ve become very lazy. I suspect from lack of sleep.

-       I’m really excited for Christmas time.

-       I ate fast food for the first time since being back home and it made me feel sick the rest of the day. It was only subway= sad story.

-       For some reason I’ve become paranoid about how much sugar I eat. I think because when I do eat it, it makes me not feel sick.

-       I’ve been so busy at work that I’ve started taking 2 showers a day. I’m not sure how I feel about this yet. I know I feel clean but I’m having to take 2 to achieve that feeling.

-       Maybe I shouldn’t work so hard.

-       When I drink a pop with caffeine in it I get about half way done with it and I get the shakes. So I try not to drink pop anymore.

-       One pop will last me 2 days.

-       Yes I drink flat pop. It doesn’t really bother me anymore.

-       I’m thinking about moving my bed into my living room. The couch is not something I can sleep on for more then a few hours.

-       I keep meaning to talk to my neighbors about their T.V. and give them a chance to turn it down, but I don’t feel like putting on a bra at 2:30 am and walking over there to talk to them. Nor do I feel like it at 6:15 am. That and when they wake me up I want to kill them.

-       What also bothers me about them is that they have 3 mini football sized Chihuahuas that I want to punt across the property because all they do is bark when noone is home.

-       The guy is always nice and makes conversation when I see him, so I would feel bad complaining to the office without trying to work out the problem.

-       I haven’t slept through the night because of my neighbors in almost 2 weeks.

-       I can see that my lack of sleep is really bothering me.

-       Right now I don’t have to use my A.C or heat. I’m lovin it.

-       I really want to go to sleep right now but I know it would only make me mad having to listen to their crappy T.V.

Time to move on. Time to get going.

This is my response to this post.

So by now most people probably know that I broke up with Brett. I’m also sure that most people are not happy about this. But I am and in the end that’s all that matters. After my last trip to Michigan in July I decided I finally needed to break up with him. The day after I got back I broke up with him. Not really the best time but when is it.

A lot had happened the month before. Most important was that Brett said he was going to take a officer job in Michigan and that he was leaving right after I got back from Michigan.  I was all for him taking the job. It’s what he says he wants to do in life. I was a little pissed he never talked to me about it before he got so involved with it. I would have liked to know that’s what he was thinking. So I then started to talk to our office here and I was able to put a hold on a smaller apartment. After all, our lease was up at the end of July and we planned on staying here. In order to move out of here we have to give 60 days notice. Which meant we would have to pay rent for 60 days if we both moved back to Michigan. Then a few days before I went to Michigan Brett told me he turned down the job. Which in turn was because he didn’t want to do all the paper work and just wanted the job to be handed to him. The job couldn’t have been more handed to him.

That story really wasn’t why I broke up with him. I guess you could say it was the last straw for me in away. I will never be able to fully put into words why I broke up with him but I can try and explain it for some people.

Just because your family loves your boyfriend doesn’t mean you should marry that person if they aren’t right for you. My family liking Brett is one of the reasons I didn’t break up with him a long time ago. Who ever I’m dating needs to get along with my family. The fact that my family liked him more then they like me really meant a lot to me. On top of that I really liked his family. His mom would call me all the time and I loved it. I didn’t want to break up with him and his family.

Which is really just a cover for being a coward and not wanting to pull the band-aid off.

I could make up excuses all day as to why it took me so long to break up with him. It comes down to the fact that I didn’t want to be the one that did it. I didn’t want to be a failure. I didn’t know how to do it or what to say. So I just didn’t do anything for a long, long time.

I was scared that if I broke up with him I would regret it and that it would be too late. I was scared that I wouldn’t know what to do with myself if I was alone again across the country from my friends and family. All my reasons for not doing it sooner are all selfish ones. And I’m a selfish person.

There’s always two sides to every story and that’s fine with me. This is mine and I’m sure his is much different. When you are trying to work things out and you tell someone what are the causes of some of the problems in the relationship. And they tell you to bad “I’ve always been this way and I always will”.  For me that was all I needed to know. I knew when I heard those words that I didn’t want to be with someone who not just refused to change but refused to try. Now if I was asking him to change his religion I would understand but all I was asking is for him to pick up his dirty cloths and that’s the response I got. I’m not a maid and for the last 6 months I was one.

I want to be with someone who wants to grow together not someone that says they will always throw their shit on the floor because they can. Maybe that makes me a bitch but I’m sure I can find someone out there that knows what a laundry basket is used for. If not I’ll be fine by myself. According to Brett I will never find another person that loves me and that no one cares about me. While that hurt if its true that fine. I’d rather be alone then with the wrong person.

I hope that he finds a girl that makes all his dreams come true. I’m just not that girl. I wish nothing but the best for him.

I thought that I would be upset about ending a 3.5 year relationship but I think it was the best thing I’ve ever done. I couldn’t be happier right now. Well that’s not true I’d be really happy for a saw bananas everyday. I thought that I wouldn’t want to live in Florida anymore. But I don’t know if that’s true. I still like it here. The funny thing is I’m exploring around here more then I have in the last 2 years. I’m going out and doing things by myself and I’m enjoying it. I’m not dating anyone and have no plans in the near future to do so. I’m enjoying my, me time. And to be honest if that’s how all relationships are then I don’t ever want to be in one again.

To sum this up you don’t stay with some one because they are a good person and your family loves them. You don’t stay with someone because they are nice and care about you. If you don’t feel they are the one for you then chances are they aren’t. If you have doubts then you should listen to them. I'm not going to stay with someone to make others happy.

Happy 4th of July

I had to take Ripley to vet today for her on going pee pee problem. I was paying my bill when I looked at the summary for what I was paying for when I noticed that they had my old address on there. I told the lady I needed to updated it. She asked for my new address and I told her. Before I could finish saying the name of the street she finsihed it for me and said I live there too. We both laughed and I figured we were done talking. Not ever close.

She asked if I heard all the "news" implying to the apartment gossip. If you want to know everything about the people living around you all you have to do it go to the pool. Those people know everything about everyone. So i said "Oh about the boy almost drowning yesturday?" She said "About the murder-suicide" I then said what murder? She then told me what she knew for her daughter filling her in. I said boy I wonder if its on the news. Lady #2 goes its already online. I ask what they goggled so I could fine it. Before I knew it she printed it out for me and handed me the article.

http://www.panhandleparade.com/index.php/mbb/article/possible_murder-suicide_under_investigation/mbb7717529/

http://www.wjhg.com/home/headlines/49926712.html

http://www.newsherald.com/news/apparent-75528-investigating-murder.html

lady #1 then asked and the drowning boy. All I heard was that a 4 year old boy was found floating in the pool and flown to the hospital. The mother wasnt watching him. I see this all the time when I'm out there and it makes me so mad. These people dont watch their kids EVER! The other week a 18 old went running in the water and her mother didnt even do anything. The mother was walking out of the pool and the grandma starting screaming for her daughter to turn around and grab the little girl.

I want to scream at these parents but of course they would tell me to mind my own bussiness. How stupid do these people have to be. How can they not understand the dangers of water and kids.

http://www.panhandleparade.com/index.php/mbb/article/near_drowning_at_beach_pool/

http://www.wjhg.com/home/headlines/49881187.html

The crazy thing is the aparment complex is a safe one. Not a whole lot goes on here but I guess its all going to happen at once.

My conversation with a retard

All of this story is true

This took place last night.

Me-Thank-you for calling Walgreens this is Jenna. How May I help you?

Retard- YEAH! Jennifer I was wondering if you guys carry BC powder in the 50 count. It’s on sale in your add this week.

J-E-N-N-A = Jenna not Jennifer- Umm I’ll have to go check let me put you on hold.

I then walk to the back half of isle 10 and see BC powder in the count of 50 chilling on the shelves just waiting for some moron to buy it.

J-E-N-N-A =Jenna not Jennifer- Miss, yes we do HAVE the BC powder in the 50 count.

RETARD- So you have some?

J-E-N-N-A = Jenna not Jennifer- Yes we have it.

Retard- How much is it?

J-E-N-N-A =Jenna not Jennifer - well miss YOU said it was in this week’s ad so it will be ringing at the price stated in the ad.

Retard- long pause…… Oh well do you have any?

J-E-N-N-A=Jenna not Jennifer- UMM YES WE DO!!!

Retard- so you have some in stock then?

J-E-N-N-A =Jenna not Jennifer - (I then shouted) YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And hung up.